Noise drowns me out. Are you feeling lost in the loud? – ISO ME.

My head gets so loud at times that I seemingly lose myself entirely. I see something similar in other too. I am making a decision to reach out to me / myself and perhaps to you too, if you can hear beyond the noise.

Am I willing to listen when I remove the noise? Will I like myself when I’m not inundated by distractions used to hide insufficiency. What might happen if I set down the constant mind numbing internet quips that I can regurgitate thoughtlessly? How many truisms can I identify with,. but never actually consider deeply enough to mean anything? I know I’m mildly annoyed by people that pour aimlessly through nonsense and then want to show it to me. “Oh Dom, look at this, look at this, oh look at this.” As if they are really trying to say: “aren’t I a deep thinker because I read some 20 memes on fakebook?” While annoyed by the depths of these shallow ventures into nothingness,.. it’s here that I have to peer into that part of ME that is casting judgements. My judgement comes from my lack and not the lack in others. It is true that I’m bothered by the thoughtless noise, yes. But this is an issue inside of me! I can’t blame others because I’m too shallow to look into myself and seek to write my own meaningful meme.

Are you still reading? Can you identify? Hear if you’re able this conversation I’m having inside my own mind while I order thoughts and pen them to paper (electronic media). What am I willing to do to calmly push myself up to hear above the noise?

Finding / discovering what I want by giving others what they literally ask for. Rather then giving people what I think they want. Discovering the depths of what another want’s or needs ought to guide me into a place of deeper self discovery. But only if I’m able to see into others having emptied myself. And this might have no effect on others but changing others does nothing to help me. So, I’ll do it expecting nothing from them and then I can receive the deeper gift I’m seeking.

Finding / discovering what I what to say by listening to others speak. Gawd I already know that empty words, meaningless babble, and thoughtless opinions are endlessly supplied on the daily. It is physically and emotionally exhausting, which is why I need to commit to adjusting myself. Seems simple enough to self correct my course and hear the world around me. But, if it were all that easy wouldn’t everyone do it themselves? So, to actually listen to others might mean sifting through thousands of thoughtless words. What I will listen for are the rare instances that something meaningful is said. At that point, when I recognize substance, I can be a benefit responding with substance. I know this means that I need to be emptied of selfishness and be open to living freely, so that’s what I must do.

Finding / discovering what I must do to be emptied and free to love me. I really only know of one way to get back to my real self. Cleansing, healing, sometimes cathartic internal meditation. Holding still, being still, being silenced, and clearing the noise is a action that’s compatible to meditative prayer. There I can find me. Contemplative prayer is a form of meditation that asks only one question and waits on the answer while dumping off everything that isn’t the answer.

Just so you know, you’re welcome to come along if you like. Contact us and we’ll get with you and be empty together. Getting empty is pretty freaking fulfilling. I’m onthisroad and you can be too.
~ Dom